Today Behind enemy lines, Radio Free Mormon dives into what it means to have “Faith Not To Be Healed”. RFM explores what we have taught about healing, its principles, how healing take place, what it means when the healing doesn’t occur, and how central healing power is to the Restored Gospel. Do you have faith not to be healed?
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What amazing arrogance on Bednar’s part. Good Grief!!!
I have witnessed a priesthood blessing of healing. I have witnessed a Christian bless my husband and he was immediately healed. So I do believe in healings. But my gosh! Bednar is taking the priesthood blessing to the realms of some of the BofM villians. This is actually so funny. These are the instances that show blatantly that the LDS church is a huge fraud in its claims of authority.
The placebo effect has no religion and all it needs is “faith”. For those who haven’t studied this much on this topic, here are some interesting articles to get you started:
Got a broken back? No problem!
http://archive.boston.com/bostonglobe/ideas/articles/2010/05/09/the_magic_cure/
Bad knees, depression? I can fix that! But only if you believe!
https://articles.mercola.com/sites/articles/archive/2013/02/20/placebo-effect.aspx
Ever wonder why an amputee has never been “healed”?
Thanks, Gale!
You made the connection that I only hinted at in the podcast.
The LDS Church divides priesthood into two parts–power and authority.
The church claims to have both.
But if the church does not have the power, on what basis can it claim the authority?
To paraphrase Paul, “Show me thy priesthood authority without thy power, and I will show you my priesthood authority by my power.”
Instead of making a long list of what the person asking for a blessing needs to be doing right, perhaps they should follow Jesus’ example, because priesthood line goes back to the Savior?Jesus rebuked any unclean spirits and healed the person on the spot. Can you imagine if Jesus told the lame and leprous to make sure their temple recommend questions had been answered appropriately before requesting a healing blessing?
It seems these guys are actually beginning to believe that when they speak, their words are scripture! So if an apostle asks you if you have faith ‘to not be healed’, makes me wonder what he’s been smokin’.
More great comments, Gale!
I do not know that this is done intentionally by Elder Scott, but the effect is the same; you must be perfectly righteous and obedient and faithful in order to be healed.
That leaves me out.
And pretty much every other member of the human race.
Sorry to chime in again, but I just read about you at Pure Mormonism and also at Rational Faiths —all on the same day!
Dannnnnnnng you are getting way too popular. You will for sure get a bad case of ‘the Big Head’, and pride will swirl about you as a thick fog. Congratulations! You deserve a bit of recognition.
Thanks again, Gale!
The glory is in the struggle!
RFM
Once you’re famous, that’s when they’ll ex you, haha…
They seek him here,
They seek him there.
Those Frenchies seek him everywhere.
So RFM, I take it that the adversary has won and taken possession of your soul as you truly laugh like the wicked one himself. =P
Great once again. Time to revolutionize LDS thinking. I think together with the criticism we need to also a pathway moving forward.
What will the LDS church 2.0 look like? And how many times has the church reinvented itself anyways.
The laugh did sound sort of diabolical, didn’t it?
I almost edited it out, but decided to leave it in as it was totally organic.
I love it when I make myself laugh!!!
You’re on the right track when you can make yourself laugh!!
I actually loved it, and we’ve all cracked evil laugh at least once or twice in our lifetimes.
RFM,
I always enjoy your podcasts and thought you made some good points. It seems like your main point was that we have overstated healing in priesthood blessings in general and have come up with a long list of rationalizations to explain why healing does not happen. I think that is a valid point. I believe that there are some people that have the spiritual gift of healing that sometimes happens with priesthood blessings. I believe that these happen, though, I will acknowledge that they are the exception not the rule. Is that the point you were making, or do you not believe there is any healing going on across the board? I believe that there are people who have this gift who may not be using it or recognized, but that people assume that because someone holds a leadership position they will be a super healer, which does not seem to be the case (as you’ve demonstrated in the podcast). Thanks for a good discussion, as always.
Good questions, Felix!
I am not trying to say that no healings happen anywhere in the LDS Church. That would be painting with too broad a stroke.
I believe they may. But if they do happen, it seems to be happening only among the rank and file.
And if they do happen, it is in spite of the example being set by church leadership–not because of it.
RFM
It’s interesting, after listening to your podcast, someone in our ward testimony meeting told a healing story. The person healing (who was just a rank and file member) felt impressed to give a blessing, the person receiving the blessing was not a member of the Church and was unconscious. Afterwards, both parties felt that there was a healing, but there were no strings attached and it all seemed to happen spontaneously and organically. This seemed to be what you discussed at the beginning and what was outlined in the BOM, NT and early church. I agree with you that putting all kinds of conditions on the person blessing, the person receiving the blessing and the will of God really complicates things. Maybe it’s a bit like humor, the more forced and analyzed it is, the less powerful it becomes. Thanks again for your great podcasts and all the work you put into research.
You made the point in another comment that priesthood is power and authority and we often lump the two together. I agree and also think there is pretty strong precedent in the scriptures and early church for gifts of the spirit being unique to certain people. We’ve moved away from that idea and have put it all in with priesthood. The logical outcome is that the higher the priesthood rank, the more power. From the stories and your analysis, more and more people are expecting and asking leaders for healings based on a higher rank, but it does not seem to be happening. Acknowledging that this is a spiritual gift, in my mind, is a logical explanation, but begs some uncomfortable questions like “can someone outside the Church have this gift?” “Can women have this gift?”
There are many spiritual gifts, to be sure.
But somewhere along the way, the LDS church co-opted the gift of healing through the priesthood.
It’s not that they don’t say it can’t happen by faith alone.
It is just that in practice, that seems to be all they talk about–the gift of healing through the power of the priesthood.
It does appear that, whether you call it a priesthood ordinance or gift of the spirit, not a lot of healings are manifesting themselves through the LDS top leadership.
Love RFM! I would sum up healing with one simple example that NEVER happens – amputees having limbs grow back. It doesn’t happen. Show me a case where this happens, especially after a priesthood blessing, and maybe I will believe again. Other healings have nothing to do with blessings from anyone, regardless of any priesthood blessing or not. The ailments that could be remedied often happen with or without medical intervention just like they happen with or without a blessing. It is simply wishful thinking on our part not wanting to cope with the fact that we are not in control of everything and neither are the heavens. If you had a life threatening aliment, and you could only choose one or the other, receive a priesthood blessing or seek a medical professional, I am sure most if not all would choose the latter. This is where I meet Bednar’s criteria that I have the faith I wouldn’t be healed by a priesthood blessing. Science wins again. Keep em’ coming!
That really is a problem, isn’t it?
I remember there being a story circulated in early LDS church history about Welsh miners who suffered a cave-in, and received priesthood blessings, and the sound of their broken ribs being restored was like the sound of baskets being crunched.
Or something like that.
Anyway, I expect that story is probably about as verifiable as Elder Holland’s biker story . . .
RFM,
I have a confession. The first time I heard the RFM podcast, I recognized the voice and the JW story from another podcast. I tracked that thing down in fairly short order and found what I was looking for.
I noticed in this last podcast you dropped just enough key personal information to be identified (birth year, baptism year, mission year, etc.).
Do you think TSCC knows who you are? And if so, have you heard from them? If not, are you anxious at all about being discovered?
In any event, I love the work you do.
Illegitimi non carborundum!!!
Congratulations, Matt!
There are certainly enough bread crumbs for anybody who really wants to figure out who I am to figure it out.
And “certain podcasts” where I appear under my real name are sufficient in many instances, it appears.
Oh well.
The drawbacks of having a readily identifiable set of vocal chords, I suppose. ;^)
RFM,
IF priesthood blessings of healing were a real thing the survival rates of terminal illnesses would be higher in Mormon communities. More people would recover from comas. Less invasive surgery would be needed. I don’t know of any statistical data that supports this notion. Not even to a small degree.
There are lies, damned lies, and statistics!
Good point, tho!
RFM
Dear RFM,
I was just listening to this podcast again. I chuckled out loud at the emphasis you placed on the word ‘succor’. It is certainly a quaint word to use; I guess it must show special reverence to use an out-of-date word in a conference address. Then I thought that perhaps he favors this word because he is honestly saying that the conference audience are a “sucker!!” for believing his “miracle” stories. haha!
A touch, a touch, I do confess!
Brilliant!
Am I the only one who read “succor” in Edgar Rice Burroughs stories as a kid, though?
The institutional church has conflated power with authority to expand their control.
There only reference in all the scriptures to priesthood power is D&C 128, a letter from Joseph where her mentions obtaining the power of the priesthood in conjunction with the sealing power.
That’s it.
No other mention of priesthood power.
There is the power of God, the power of godliness, the power of the spirit, and of course the power of faith.
Read James carefully. (Where we get the doctrine of blessings and healing) the elders are called to preform an ordinance of anointing into death.
If the person has faith, the prayer of faith heals them. Not priesthood. Faith
We are worshiping a false good of priesthood.
No wonder blessings rarely work
Just discovered this gem over at TOTs, about Bednar’s apparent arrogrance on display.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CPBsWbopjXU
Too, too funny.
I’m still questioning some of the BofM’s statements, but it surely looks like the passages on pride are in full sway in the LDS leadership.
That is an incredible video, isn’t it?
It looks like Susan Bednar is so terrified she is ready to chew her right leg off.
Dear RFM,
“chew her right leg off.” ?????????????????
I can’t believe you come up with this stuff!
I’m quite sure I will stop laughing over this in perhaps 15-20 minutes.
You nailed it!
Well, we need to give some credit to the placebo effect. We can call prayer & priesthood blessings the ultimate placebo effects.
Where do we turn to now for Priesthood Authority & the True Church or is the Kingdom of God simply within us? Luke 17:21
Interesting podcast. I have been present and have seen my father heal a less active, good man, sentenced to death by doctors and promised him extended time to get his family sealed to him in the temple. Mission accomplished. I have blessed and been an instrument in bringing healing to non-member family members of families as well as members I have been fortunate enough to home teach. I have watched simple priesthood men bring healing to common folk, members, and non-members. An Elder holds the same priesthood as the prophet, just different keys. No difference, no greater power, so there should be no expectation by anyone thinking a blessing by a leader is any better or of greater value. That happens far to often in the church. I am no special priesthood holder, with many weaknesses, but have been able to bless a man who suffered back problems for years, with a promise that led to a discovery of a surgeon who changed his life for the better. I know the differrence of feeling I could say or promnise something, and not being able to promise anything, just couldn’t say it, even when I wanted to. I also know the difference of bleesing someone with a clean vessel (me that is) and not. I also know that the faith of the familiy, the reciever and the person giving the blessing plays a role and I also know that the Lord’s will, in the end, will be done. Faith is an amazing principle and I wish I had the fatih to do many things, but I regretably don’t. I beleive our sisters and wives have healing powers that can bless their husbands and sons that have been given the assignment to bear the priesthood and perform the blessings. I am sure women, in special situations have healed as well. So to summarize, this podcast is interesting, but misses the mark, but that is just my opinion. The faith not to be healed could also be having the faith to accept the Lord’s will for us in spite of our hopes and wishes and even our faith. I think that is what the apostles you reference in the pocast meant. Just my thoughts.
I appreciate your thoughts, Brian, and I appreciate you!
You are a good man!
If church leaders said the things you say in your comment, I would have much less to criticize!
;^)
I fee the same about you.
This is a really interesting topic that I have gone back and forth with over the years for many of the reasons cited by RFM. I believe there were some really good points made in this podcast and I enjoyed listening. I really liked the laugh that almost seemed a bit sinister. This may not be a popular stance in this thread, but I do believe that prayer can work and does in many different faiths around the word. I think a priesthood blessing is another form of prayer that is both acknowledged and approved of by God. My wife was diagnosed with cancer a few years ago. The stance I took was that blessings either have the potential power to heal or they don’t. If they don’t, then there is no need to have them. My wife was given several priesthood blessings along the way and was promised to be healed. On one particular occasion, she was given a blessing when her symptoms were so painful she felt she could not go on. I watched her pain go away right after the blessing and she went peacefully to sleep. This is just one of many experiences we had that gave us first hand evidence that blessing can and do work. I also received blessings as a way to help me cope with the stress of being a provider to my family and caretaker of my wife. The peace I received would be very difficult to deny. I have to say I find the talk Elder Benar gave to be something I don’t care for or understand. Fortunately for us, my wife was healed. She got through it and we both have a testimony of priesthood blessings. The gospel can be complex, messy and difficult to understand at times, especially when you add in the culture and imperfection of leaders and members, but it can also be an amazing force for good in our lives.
Thanks for your comments, Tagge!
I want to chime in with agreement that I believe miracles can and do occur in the lives of LDS members. I know because I have experienced them.
Maybe I will podcast about that at some time.
I have to hasten to acknowledge that I believe miracles can and do occur in the lives of non-LDS members, as well.
And I have to finally observe that, to the extent miracles happen in the lives of the LDS, it almost seems to be in spite of what the leaders say, rather than because of it.
Thanks for listening!
Thanks RFM. First of all, I apologize for posting my comment twice. I didn’t mean to do so. Another thought I forgot to add is I’ve heard the stats of healings and am aware that they are not any higher in the LDS community than outside. It would be arrogant for us to believe we have the corner of the market on blessings from God. I like to think healings are even because there are people all around the world who use the knowledge and means they have been given to open a channel of communication with God. Because God loves all of his children, he blesses them. If God were to only focus on Mormons (which we know is less than 1% of the world population), he would have a lot of time on his hands and would be limiting himself to using only a small fraction of his ability to bless his children. Anyway, keep up the great work.
And if God really were focusing on the Mormons, as many Mormons believe, you would think with all that extra time on his hands Mormons would, in fact, have a higher rate of healing miracles than other denominations.
I am aware that some Mormons believe that any miracles happening to non-Mormons must be caused by Satan.
If that is the case, Satan must be working a lot harder at miracles than God. ;^)
That is pretty crazy. I’ve also heard that before about Satan. If that really were true not only would he be working harder, but it would make him a pretty benevolent fellow as well.
I wonder if Elder Donald L. Hallstrom listened to this episode before composing his General Conference talk on the subject (Sunday morning, Oct. 1, 2017). He seemed to be addressing the problem.
Dear Tim,
I noticed that Hallstrom used the faith not to be healed reference. My guess is that they are passing around the ‘wacky tobaccy’ in an effort to get everyone all the same page, and accept the reality of there being no power to heal, so make lemonade when you are given lemons.
Oh no, Gale! Elder Hallstrom used the same expression from Elder Bednar’s talk?
This sounds like more typical sucking up to superiors in the ranks.
The effect it has is of taking a much lesser known young adult devotional from four years back and putting it front and center in General Conference.
With the added perk that it now becomes “canonized” as scripture and will be quoted by lay members for at least the next six months.
I have not listened to Elder Hallstrom’s talk yet, but plan to.
I received a similar message from a friend right after that session was over.
It is good to know Elder Hallstrom is an avid listener to RFM!
;^)
This is a really interesting topic that I have gone back and forth with over the years for many of the reasons cited by RFM. I believe there were some really good points made in this podcast and I enjoyed listening. I really liked the laugh that almost seemed a bit sinister. This may not be a popular stance in this thread, but I do believe that prayer can work and does in many different faiths around the word. I think a priesthood blessing is another form of prayer that is both acknowledged and approved of by God. My wife was diagnosed with cancer a few years ago. The stance I took was that blessings either have the potential power to heal or they don’t. If they don’t, then there is no need to have them. My wife was given several priesthood blessings along the way and was promised to be healed. On one particular occasion, she was given a blessing when her symptoms were so painful she felt she could not go on. I watched her pain go away right after the blessing and she went peacefully to sleep. This is just one of many experiences we had that gave us first hand evidence that blessing can and do work. I also received blessings as a way to help me cope with the stress of being a provider to my family and caretaker of my wife. The peace I received would be very difficult to deny. I have to say I find the talk Elder Benar gave to be something I don’t care for or understand. Fortunately for us, my wife was healed. She got through it and we both have a testimony of priesthood blessings. The gospel can be complex, messy and difficult to understand at times, especially when you add in the culture and imperfection of leaders and members, but it can also be an amazing force for good in our lives.
Props for getting Opus and ‘shrinkage’ into the same podcast. Nicely done! I was a huge Bloom County fan while in HS in the 80s. I had a couple of stuffed Opuses (Opi?) back in the day. I imagine they are around here somewhere. Sadly, you completely neglected Bill the Cat. I doubt he would be surprised. 🙂
As for the topic…when a believer (finally turned in my TL last April), I just assumed that I didn’t have enough faith, either as the voice of the blessing or as the recipient, for anything to come of it. I always hated the pressure associated with offering the blessing. Glad those days are behind me. It’s all total nonsense (IMO, of course).
Good stuff as always. Keep up the good work!
Thanks for your comments, TMR!
Glad somebody has finally referenced the “shrinkage” part of the podcast!
Also glad to have listeners who didn’t need the Bloom County reference unpacked for them.
Thanks also for sharing your feelings of pressure related to giving priesthood blessings. I didn’t think I was the only one to experience that sort of thing.
I think it can be helpful for non-priesthood holders to understand what is involved with this particular responsibility, and how being able to perform priesthood blessings isn’t always a blessing.
I found the following today. I wonder how much of this is true vs the typical embellishments. Though I suppose she had “Faith not to be healed” Anyway here’s the account.
“President Monson can be remembered as a prophet. There are many examples of his prophetic gift. One account, among many, that stands out in my mind is the Methvin family.
In 1974, Christal Methvin , a 10-year-old dying of cancer, wanted a blessing from a General Authority. She looked at the pictures of all the General Authories and selected Thomas Monson. With the faith of a child she and her family asked Heavenly Father that apostle Thomas Monson come to give her a blessing. Her prayers brought about changes to Elder Monson Stake assignment. No one in Salt Lake knew about Christal, but the Lord did. Inspiration began to flow. President Benson told Elder Monson he felt impressed to send him to Shreveport Louisiana Stake.
When Elder Monson arrived for his assignment he learned about Christal for the first time. He was told that he would need to travel over 100 miles round trip to give her a blessing. He looked the schedule over and couldn’t find a way to do it. He suggested to local leaders that they pray for her in the Stake meeting and left it at that. However, the Lord had other plans.
Elder Monson gave an account of what happen in Oct 1975 General Conference saying,
“When the word was communicated to the Methvin family, there was understanding but a trace of disappointment as well. Hadn’t the Lord heard their prayers? Hadn’t he provided that Brother Monson would come to Shreveport? Again the family prayed, asking for a final favor—that their precious Christal would realize her desire.
At the very moment the Methvin family knelt in prayer, the clock in the stake center showed the time to be 7:45. The leadership meeting had been inspirational. I was sorting my notes, preparing to step to the pulpit, when I heard a voice speak to my spirit. The message was brief, the words familiar: “Suffer the little children to come unto me, and forbid them not: for of such is the kingdom of God.” (Mark 10:14.) My notes became a blur. My thoughts turned to a tiny girl in need of a blessing. The decision was made. The meeting schedule was altered.”
This is an example of how the Lord, when He desires, intervenes and guides his church leaders to carry out His will.
Elder Monson continues,
“I shall ever remember and never forget that early-morning journey to a heaven the Methvin family calls home. I have been in hallowed places—even holy houses—but never have I felt more strongly the presence of the Lord than in the Methvin home. Christal looked so tiny lying peacefully on such a large bed. The room was bright and cheerful. The sunshine from the east window filled the bedroom with light as the Lord filled our hearts with love.
The family surrounded Christal’s bedside. I gazed down at a child who was too ill to rise—almost too weak to speak. Her illness had now rendered her sightless. So strong was the spirit that I fell to my knees, took her frail hand in mine, and said simply, “Christal, I am here.” She parted her lips and whispered, “Brother Monson, I just knew you would come.” I looked around the room. No one was standing. Each was on bended knee. A blessing was given. A faint smile crossed Christal’s face. Her whispered “thank you” provided an appropriate benediction. Quietly, each filed from the room.
Four days later, on Thursday, as Church members in Shreveport joined their faith with the Methvin family and Christal’s name was remembered in a special prayer to a kind and loving Heavenly Father, the pure spirit of Christal Methvin left its disease-ravaged body and entered the paradise of God.”
“The Master did indeed utter those words, “Suffer the little children to come unto me, and forbid them not: for of such is the kingdom of God.”
I know these are the words he spoke to the throng gathered on the coast of Judea by the waters of Jordan—for I have read them.
I know these are the words he spoke to an apostle on assignment in Shreveport, Louisiana—for I heard them.”
None of the leadership of the Church can heal the sick. None of the mission presidents can heal the sick; none of the seventy, and none of those in the Quorum of the Twelve or First Presidency can heal the sick. This is because of priestcraft, and other sin. As long as they are taking money from the Savior’s Treasury, and committing other sin, they cannot heal the sick because they are not clean, and therefore are not worthy to exercise priesthood power.
And they are stuck in their rut because they refuse to recognize that their priestcrafts are forbidden by the Savior.
You will never see or hear of any man in upper leadership positions healing the sick. Not if their life depended on it. Not if their wives lives depended on it. President Nelson’s wife’s life did depend on it and she died.
They cannot heal the sick, and they know it. That’s why we hear things like Elder Bednar’s bassackward question regarding faith not to be healed. They will do anything but repent and keep the commandments to preserve their power. It’s a big problem.
According to the scriptures they will one day say that healings have been done away. They will have to say that because people are getting wise to the fact that their only power is worldly power and they’re going to be called on it in a big way.
Or such God magic never really existed in the first place
– Bill
Hello. (At this point in time I am not sure this episode is open to comments; I have only recently discovered your podcast this past June, 2018.) This particular episode really hit home for me. I originally joined the LDS church way back in 1979; I left when Ezra Taft Benson became the president of the church in 1985 because I could not sustain him in that position. There were also other reasons; I was beginning to learn about all those controversial issues involving Joseph Smith, church history, etc., and this was even before the advent of the internet. Then in April of 2011 I developed a neuropathy of unknown etiology with an equally unknown name, Reflex Sympathetic Dystrophy, that affected my right lower leg and foot. I lost my mobility as well as my ability to work and consequently became disabled and homebound. Then one evening during the chilly Christmas season of 2011 I answered my door bell to find two female Mormon missionaries and decided to invite them in because it was very cold outside. Various missionaries started coming by; they, of course, encouraged me to return to the fold. It was even discussed that may be Heavenly Father had given me this affliction in order to help “encourage” my return, the God-works-in-mysterious-ways concept. Eventually I decided to give the church another try. I guess I thought that may be if I tried again to be a faithful and dutiful Mormon, then may be at some point Heavenly Father would answer my prayers and heal me of my disease and its chronic pain. And I was also hoping the power of the priesthood would help Him accomplish this healing feat. I was desperate to be returned to a fully functioning, healthy, and happier person. So I started attending church even though the logistics were challenging, I paid my tithing, accepted a church calling, got a temple recommend, and even received my endowments. I tried to be a faithful Latter-Day Saint, and along the way I did ask for blessings from various priesthood holders. I even inquired if there was a priesthood holder who had the spiritual gift of healing. My inquiry was not answered nor was my disease healed. I reached the point where I stopped asking for blessings. I was left to ponder why would it be God’s will for me to suffer with this affliction. Was this pay back for my years of inactivity? Once an apostate always an apostate? Was I not faithful or worthy enough to be healed? And what about all those issues that I previously had with the church? And what about the new ones, i. e. “A Proclamation to the World?” I decided I just wasn’t meant to be a Mormon, and if those priesthood powers exist they weren’t meant for someone like me.
Healing is one of the many so-called spiritual gifts listed in Mormonism wherein the church believes these things are vital and essential to the development of the members of the church in the household of FAITH.
Let’s take elder Bednar’s warped principle of “faith not to be healed” and apply it to spiritual gifts and see how it cancels everything out especially at the last gift:
The Gift of Healing
Faith not to be healed
The Gift of Believing the Testimony of Others
Faith not to believe the testimony of others
The Gift of Prophecy
Faith not to prophesy
The Gift of Working Miracles
Faith not to work miracles
The Gift of Tongues
Faith not to speak in tongues
The Gift of Interpretation of Tongues
Faith not to interpret tongues
The Gift of Translation
Faith not to translate
The Gift of Wisdom
Faith not to have wisdom
The Gift of Knowledge
Faith not to have knowledge
The Gift of Teaching Wisdom and Knowledge
Faith not to teach wisdom and knowledge
The Gift of Knowing That Jesus Christ Is the Son of God
Faith not to know Jesus is the Christ
AND FINALLY:
The Gift of Faith
Faith to not have faith
Thank you RFM, just listened to this podcast recently. I was born with a congenital heart defect. In my early adult life, roughly 20 years ago I began experiencing serious complications related to this birth defect. My doctors were recommending a surgery that they did not fully know what the outcome for me would be. There were very few adults with my defect who had undergone this surgery and so it was very much new territory for the team of surgeons who would perform the surgery. Needless to say my wife and I were very anxious and feeling reluctant to go ahead with the procedure. Throughout my life my name had been placed in the temple and I had been given numerous blessings that promised me that I would be healed. I soon learned during this time we were contemplating my surgery that then Elder Nelson would be visiting my in-laws stake for a conference. I wrote Elder Nelson a letter, explaining my situation and relating my faithfulness to the church, including serving a mission. I requested a meeting with him to be given a blessing. I waited with great anticipation for his response, fully believing that I would be given a blessing by an Apostle of Jesus Christ and be healed by the power of the Priesthood. The days went by and I received no letter, but did receive a call from his secretary. She said that Elder Nelson’s schedule would not allow him to meet with me, but said he new the surgeons at the hospital where the surgery would be performed and he had great confidence in them. She also told me that Elder Nelson said many times the Lord heals people through surgeons. I recall at the time feeling heartbroken, no pun intended, that I would not be healed in the miraculous manner that I had dreamed of for many years. I did however follow Elder Nelson’s council and proceed with the surgery and I am grateful for that. I do now understand that my childhood dreams I had of being healed by the priesthood were just that, dreams. Thank you RFM for helping to expose the allusions of the church and the cognitive dissonance I felt about priesthood blessings for my 40+ years as a member of the church.